all that's left is a box full of sand
crystalized ashes of greatness
reduced to weighting papers
nothing left to admire
too far gone to scorn
lapsed into the apathetic void
a tribute to the human condition
no pomp, no circumstance
a wisp of existence
repurposed, forgotten
left to take up space
Lonely skin folds over bones
Bulging over joints, misshapen.
Ill-fitting, stretched across
This expanse of Black-hole self.
Empty limbs, loose in their sockets
Grasp for life dripping
Through storm drains
Elapse into unattended dusk
Overwhelmed by
Forget.
Your lovely face has
slipped through
Storm drains, down to
The world existing between our skin
and fingernails. Our thoughts and
The thoughts beneath.
Underlying
Streets in tunnel universes,
In rodent holes and deep channels
breathing steaming carbon
Into the city above.
The woman in the red shoes
Hooks her heel in the grate again
As she stumbles
a piece of you smiles.
Forced
Gloved hand glides
/stutters, stills subsides/
Works at hard rhyme
Filters thoughts uninked
Holding tight to the pen
/that never touches skin/
Lies on prosthetic limbs
through
Perfecting perjury in
Word play
As poets do.
Because they hold the pen
/it all makes sense to them/
As others stumble
Gleaning only abstracts
Digging through the regolith
Lost in top soil misinterpretation
Mind drips from hand into kettle
switch it on
Fingers fumble with neurons, slipping
Let it boil, absentmindedly
Set it on stove top until
Whistle, Whistle, Sanity steamed away
Sanitized thoughts emit
Wait vapor rising
And he is warm against me.
Synapse after synapse erodes
Decayed by heat, time
Thoughts are vicious, unrefined
Bubbling beneath kettle lidded cleansing
The Kettle
Stupid
Screaming
Contains imaginings, poured in
Dropped, Thrown, Given
He, he , is warm against me
Words collapse, speech eradicated
process towards perfection
Practically complete
Originality wiped cle
Was it just a phase?
When I poured out to the page
Searched for release in granite and ink
In words that have fallen into indifference,
A forgotten refuge from a well-remembered storm.
Shelter cast aside as pride cascaded in
As thinking I had nothing to hide tugged at my dark corners.
Am I out of metaphors?
Fanciful analogies blanketing secrets in my phrase.
Have I scurried back again, knowing I've tarried a moment
Too long in reality? Seeing that I can't
Take on the world without a fall back
Without my ever faithful page, stark white oblivion
Always waiting to be filled.
Salt conquers pores with each lick of ocean flames.
In crash upon crash of tidal clamor
The restlessness breeds peace
The mind quieted
The world defiant,
Deafening
Shells crack on rock face,
Littering the shore, swaying with the tide
Until the sharp edges slice skin.
Then serenity falters, crystals in the wound
Mingle blood and sand. Like war
Wrapped in acoustic minor chords
Drifting out from deserted beaches,
From worn guitar strings resonating
Beneath life stained fingertips.
all that's left is a box full of sand
crystalized ashes of greatness
reduced to weighting papers
nothing left to admire
too far gone to scorn
lapsed into the apathetic void
a tribute to the human condition
no pomp, no circumstance
a wisp of existence
repurposed, forgotten
left to take up space
Lonely skin folds over bones
Bulging over joints, misshapen.
Ill-fitting, stretched across
This expanse of Black-hole self.
Empty limbs, loose in their sockets
Grasp for life dripping
Through storm drains
Elapse into unattended dusk
Overwhelmed by
Forget.
Your lovely face has
slipped through
Storm drains, down to
The world existing between our skin
and fingernails. Our thoughts and
The thoughts beneath.
Underlying
Streets in tunnel universes,
In rodent holes and deep channels
breathing steaming carbon
Into the city above.
The woman in the red shoes
Hooks her heel in the grate again
As she stumbles
a piece of you smiles.
Forced
Gloved hand glides
/stutters, stills subsides/
Works at hard rhyme
Filters thoughts uninked
Holding tight to the pen
/that never touches skin/
Lies on prosthetic limbs
through
Perfecting perjury in
Word play
As poets do.
Because they hold the pen
/it all makes sense to them/
As others stumble
Gleaning only abstracts
Digging through the regolith
Lost in top soil misinterpretation
Mind drips from hand into kettle
switch it on
Fingers fumble with neurons, slipping
Let it boil, absentmindedly
Set it on stove top until
Whistle, Whistle, Sanity steamed away
Sanitized thoughts emit
Wait vapor rising
And he is warm against me.
Synapse after synapse erodes
Decayed by heat, time
Thoughts are vicious, unrefined
Bubbling beneath kettle lidded cleansing
The Kettle
Stupid
Screaming
Contains imaginings, poured in
Dropped, Thrown, Given
He, he , is warm against me
Words collapse, speech eradicated
process towards perfection
Practically complete
Originality wiped cle
Was it just a phase?
When I poured out to the page
Searched for release in granite and ink
In words that have fallen into indifference,
A forgotten refuge from a well-remembered storm.
Shelter cast aside as pride cascaded in
As thinking I had nothing to hide tugged at my dark corners.
Am I out of metaphors?
Fanciful analogies blanketing secrets in my phrase.
Have I scurried back again, knowing I've tarried a moment
Too long in reality? Seeing that I can't
Take on the world without a fall back
Without my ever faithful page, stark white oblivion
Always waiting to be filled.
Salt conquers pores with each lick of ocean flames.
In crash upon crash of tidal clamor
The restlessness breeds peace
The mind quieted
The world defiant,
Deafening
Shells crack on rock face,
Littering the shore, swaying with the tide
Until the sharp edges slice skin.
Then serenity falters, crystals in the wound
Mingle blood and sand. Like war
Wrapped in acoustic minor chords
Drifting out from deserted beaches,
From worn guitar strings resonating
Beneath life stained fingertips.
He is not an Edward.
He doesn't stare at me every minute he is with me.
Or smell my hair and watch me sleep.
Won't follow me, like a lost puppy,
Sometimes, he'll even walk away.
He doesn't love me for my faults,
It's in spite of them.
He'll notice pretty girls, even think of
past lovers
When he laughs at me, it's because I'm silly,
Not cute
Or Perfect.
The thought of me getting hurt does not bring tears to his eyes.
He would not die if I died,
He is not an Edward.
And I am not a Bella.
We are real.
Our love is real.
And that,
Is more important, and genuine
Than idealistic, impossible fantasies.
Screw Edward.
I'm fucked up.
I'm fine.
I'm selfish.
I'm selfless.
I'm cracked.
I'm whole.
I'm in love.
I'm hating.
I'm this.
I'm that.
I'm right.
I'm wrong.
On one hand I wish you were here,
on the other I want you nowhere near.
Steel protects you from others,
You keep it locked around your heart.
Metal is your secret shield.
Keeping other from tearing you apart.
Your sleeve is clear of any heart,
Your face free of all emotion.
Your in your shell once more.
Masking your true devotion.
Your safe again, its true.
Invisibility at its peck.
You think no one can hurt you,
If you never speak.
The armor that you where,
Is your one true safety net.
Youve worn it well and tight.
Hoping its not something to regret.
But I see through this costume,
Ive broken thought the steel.
I see you for who you are,
And everything that
Toast to a Finite Mind by brighterside22, literature
Literature
Toast to a Finite Mind
Raise your glass to limitation dearest
Touch lips to rim in honor of goodbye.
Within hope and joy time is known to fly,
Now knowing the things we hold the nearest
Are what always strike our hearts severest.
So when in doubt its simple; do or die.
This is the best our finite minds supply
Clearly through our lives this we can attest.
But, useless reason will never get far
And finding purpose is a makeshift goal
Here on the surface of the earth we mar.
We find in this universe we patrol
There is yet nothing underneath our star,
Manmade, that has the strength to make us whole.
Sometimes I feel as though I've hung upside down from the monkey bars too long and all the blood has rushed up into my head, making the world feel foggy and my feet feel dizzy.
So I'm back 'home' at my grandparents house. It's always interesting to be here because I feel so separate from the rest of the world. It is as thought the rest of the world has stopped existing when I step through the door, and I feel like a child again. All at once I feel everything that has happened here. I feel all the 5 year old questions, the middle longing, the sadness and the joy that came with spending summers in the fields of middle Tennessee. There is a sort of nostalgia mixed with a deep seated longing for..something. I'm not sure what, maybe it's for home. Maybe it's for being able to really know what a home feels like. Maybe it'
I figured I should update people on my life again considering things have changed.
I'm not longer single (again), and I don't know how I manage to go from relationship to relationship so quickly but it works some how. Funny how life never hands you the deck you expect.
Nice boy, been approved of so far.
Still writing a poem a day. I've missed a few days recently because my creativity seems to have dried up. It'll come back soon, just need to be inspired.
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